Gravity ~ Keeping Me Down

Gravity
by Sara Bareilles
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do, I still feel you here ’till the moment I’m gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.
You loved me ’cause I’m fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I
Try to make you see that you’re
Everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you’re neither friend nor foe though I
Can’t seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down
You’re keeping me down, yeah, yeah, yeah
You’re onto me, onto me and all over

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long

Gravity & Balance

Balance:  a desirable point between two or more opposite forces.

I believe I have found a state of equilibrium… a very acceptable medium between the highest of the highs and the lowest of the lows.  Gravity has definitely had it’s way with me for the past couple months, but I think I’ve finally figured out how to balance… how to be centered.  They say if you love something, let it go.  I let him go and it was hard to deal with, an awful aching in my heart, but I picked myself up and began the healing process.  I started thinking rationally again and logicized how I was better off and stronger in spite of everything.

Then the laws of attraction came back out to play again.  He came back to me… he couldn’t stay away as much as I didn’t want him to go away.  Although I think “forever” is definitely not in our cards, as those external forces are going to divide us again soon… in the meantime, I have love, clarity, and balance.  I have a solid grasp on the situation… my expectations are set and I know the boundaries.  It doesn’t seem right to me that two people with such an obvious attraction for each other should not be able to stay together infinitely; indeed, it seems wrong on a cellular level.  Regardless of what is right though, there simply is what is.  Some things are in our control, some thing are out of our control, and some things we choose not to control.  Maybe our friendship will continue over the distances and time; maybe it won’t.  Either way, there is peace with what happens… there is balance within.

“Don’t fight forces, use them”    – R. Buckminster Fuller